that green thing

The fashion industry endeavours is an interesting ride. There has been and probably will be people who’ve been involved in it for a season, two? And then disappeared. Natural selection of the art world. I personally straight up refuse to be the part of it’s natural selection. I’ve been doing this for way too long to just quit. Yes, there has been time when I’ve wanted to set fire to everything to do with that part of myself. And never comeback. But let’s be honest ever since creating my first blog just over 10 years ago I’ve done stuff and met people I never otherwise wouldn’t have met.

Some of my most closest connections with people is thanks to being chronically online. Sharing, oversharing even maybe? But that’s that not only I somehow found peace and a purpose I guess. Yes, I know it sounds vain. But if you have an experience of being belittled for self expression, then finally being not only understood and accepted feels people good. Especially if it connects you to the likeminded people. I know us bloggers, content creators, influencers have a reputation. And some of it 100% justified, but how is it different or better from the usual form of self expression? We work for ourselves, most of us have control over what we say, do and share (within a reason of course).

That also gives us a freedom to step down if needed. I know I couldn’t do it if I worked in a traditional creative spare, I’d ever have to quit. Cause of the course of 3 years I have not been in the right mindset to create. Let alone share most of the creation and thoughts. It wouldn’t come from a healthy place. And I’m not the sort of person who agrees with the toxic positivity either, but there has to be a balance and I didn’t have it. Sometimes I feel like I’m still searching for it. I went from living in order to share to shutting down and living for the sake of living. But I feel like this outfit and photos are the perfect example of that. These were taken for the point of publishing them here, but without the strict schedule like I use to do. And even though we took these photos over the course of few hours, the day when that happened has been chill and quite relaxing where there wasn’t pressure to get these out to the world the same day. And I hope that will continue going forward. So yeah, if you’re a new visitor welcome. If you’re returning welcome back and let’s try thing blogging thing again shall we?

Love x

Photography: R.C

Jacket – Punk Rave (similar) // Top & Skirt – Disturbia // Choker – Bought at Amphi Festival // Belt – Primark // Bag – Ali Express (similar) // Shoes – Demonia