8 YEARS OF BLOGGING | HOW IT CHANGED ME

It’s time to write some words. Don’t you think?

It’s been few months since my last post. If I have to be honest. I feel like I forgot to write. Honestly. It’s currently midnight, “Breakfast at Tiffany’s” is playing in the background, and my head is full with worry about, well.

E V E R Y T H I N G

The best way to explain how I feel is to saying it this way. I walk into my room but it has been violated so much so that it doesn’t feel like mine anymore. This is how I feel and left about being online and blogging for over a year or so. There’s couple of factors to it, the pandemic, the people I wish I never met online, my mental health and I guess the loss of passion. I remember over the last 8 years of me being online I’ve started seeing more and more creators leaving their platforms, to either focus on their Instagram, or leave for good. And I back then I never got it. Seeing so much work and passion that went into some of those sites, instagram pages, youtube channels, you name it. And then *puff* it was left alone and forgotten.

And back then I could never get it, until I did. Deleted all of it. And as I am very aware that whatever goes on the internet says there forever, I still wanted to get rid of whatever I could and my plan was to leave it behind for good. There was only one problem with that plan.

Ya girl is a creative, who likes to show off her creativity. And it doesn’t matter whenever it would be via a video, photography, art, text… You know what I did instead of blogging? I did art, and then got back to designing and creating clothes. No matter how much I try to leave it all behind, the fate is putting me together with people who are also creatives, and that just pushes me not to give up on doing something that helps me not drown in my own thoughts and bash my head into the wall (too dark?).

I have years worth of content, photos, outfits and unfinished texts that I could post tomorrow but chose not to, thanks a lot anxiety. Even without having my good old trusted DSLR I could easily post everyday. Like these photos here. I think I took them around 2 years ago. Hey, I was never the one to post outfits on time, then again me still owning everything in this set, minus the bag, I could tell you I wore this yesterday.

I guess for now this blog is going to become a photo dump so I don’t feel bad about my old “content” being wasted… Until I’ll be able to post photos of present day, or maybe I’ll mix it all up. Who knows. Sorry for the rambling. Hope you enjoyed?? Ok, bye.