that green thing

 I’ve been feeling like a fake blogger. I’ve been feeling like my blogging days are behind me, and I’m understanding more and more why some people who create content only stick to Instagram or Twitter only. Pushing out content on weekly basis is a lot, especially if you’re mental health just isn’t there. For years before my poor mental health would be a weird push for me to keep on creating content, where now it sort of it stops me from doing well, anything, my energy to create and produce content just isn’t there. There’s always this unanswered question “what’s the point?” and it’s really hard to find that point, until I get a nice comment or get few likes for something I created. It’s vain I know, but it helps for my own head not to defeat me and keep on doing what I enjoy. And that’s why I’ll create photos and videos and just let them sit in the depths of my hard-drive for, in this case. Over a year.

I remember when I’ve first started blogging and started with Tumblr (rip, you’ll never be the same again) there was this content creator, Violet Ell, and I know there was lot’s of controversy surrounding her. But that’s her life, and I was never there for the drama, but for the aesthetic of her photos. They always gave me the vibe of late 80s early 90’s, the pale skin, dark lips, grainy photos, dark contrasts with the flash… I loved it. Even now sometimes I’ll go back into her achieves to find some inspiration. I love how dark and mysterious her work was and it still inspires me till this day now. These photos were taken over a year ago, back when I was still in London, January, if my memory doesn’t fail me. It was too cold to shoot outside, also too dark. And I really wanted to show off this bodysuit. So the cold, white surface of the bathroom in my old house fitted perfectly. So I shoot some photos that were mainly focused on the aesthetic, photography rather than just an outfit.

 I hope you’ll enjoy it, there’s more to come.

Bodysuit – H&M, old (similar) // Choker – Killstar (similar)